I'M FUCKING ANGRY!!!
My plan for this blog was to go in chronological order so it would be easier to follow. But I as I should know by now, life is not going to go as I plan it. I've been struggling to write the next post about Organ Donation for the last 4 weeks mainly due to the current grieving "stage" I'm in. Right after I lost Wylie I was told repeatedly about the 5 stages of grief: Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance. I couldn't understand and still don't really, why everyone thought this was necessary for me to know. Maybe to know my feelings are normal? Or to give me a heads up as to what may be ahead for me? Here is a pretty chart that shows the stages along with feelings. However this chart is a more accurate representation of the stages. Grief is a roller coaster of emotions and no one grieves in the same way. I've recently learned that my grieving was most likely delayed for more than a year b/c I was in ...