The Uncensored Widow

This is when my concept of time completely vanished.  I know these events took place, but I don't know exactly when, if some were the same day or if there were several days in between them.  I was not a functioning person at this time. Waking up the day after the funeral was a surreal experience.  I was trying to wrap my head around everything that happened over the past week.  It took me a while to realize that it wasn't just a bad dream.  I remember sitting there thinking, "Now what?" I was in a very weird fog, that many have dubbed "The Widow Fog".  I couldn't fully comprehend that Wylie was really gone.  It actually felt like he was out of town for work and would be coming back soon.  This is a feeling would last several weeks.  Up until this point, I had been "distracted" with things that needed to be done for funeral.  Everyday I had something that needed to be done.  Now that it was over, I was sitting here with nothing ...

Planning the funeral of your spouse, or any loved one, is not something you can ever truly be prepared for. When my step-father in law asked me where we should have the funeral, is when it hit me I was going to have allot  of decisions to make.  I told him I wanted Hoy-Kilnoski Funeral Home  , as I had heard very positive things about them and knew it could accommodate a large amount of people.  I was so thankful when he said he would call and take care of setting up the meeting, because I was in no shape to do that.  I'm specifically mentioning the funeral home by name because they took amazing care of us, provided outstanding service and went above and beyond anything I could have imagined. My mother & step-father in laws attended the first meeting and would help me with the planning.  My father in law was not able, emotionally, to attend the planning but I would still run the plans by him and ask for his input.  We met with Mike Hoy, who gen...